The Things That People Can’t Seeposted on September 5th, 2012 / by Lexie Saxion / 4 Comments
I’ve been going through a season of processing. Deep, hidden things that are easier to ignore are being unearthed. It’s an excavation of my soul. God has a bulldozer to dig, a magnifying glass to reveal and a spotlight to shine on all my unseens.
He’s revealing things like fear, insecurity and pride. Things that paralyze me and keep me locked down. Things that people can’t see.
The idea that God sees all of this does not intimidate me. It inspires me. It makes me want to get closer to Him, because I know His nearness will burn it up.
Yet, the idea that a person or a people would know my intimate struggles is somewhat horrifying.
What would they think about my hidden thoughts? hidden fears? hidden insecurities?
And, it’s this very thing that keeps myself and millions of others entangled by our unseen sin.
We fear criticism instead of embracing correction.
We fear rejection instead of living in redemption.
We fear THEM instead of fearing HIM.
I’ve been through processing before, but this time it’s different. I’m wearing a badge of courage as I brave the rebuke. I’m bringing the monsters out of the closet and putting them on display. As the saying goes, I’m letting it all hang out.
This doesn’t mean I’ll be giving them a microphone or platform. It means I recognize them, expose them to trusted friends, seek accountability and take responsibility to co-labor with God. It means I welcome the excavation process. It means I answer altar calls and say yes until they’re gone.
I want to encourage you to let it all hang out. Drag those personal demons out of the closet, and let the light of the Son burn them up.
Choose to live in real freedom instead of the fear of man, and get rid of the things that people can’t see.
“Lord, help me to let go of pride and insecurity. Give me a deeper revelation of Your love, so that I would choose Your freedom, rather than man’s acceptance. Holy Spirit, remind me of everything Jesus has spoken and shown me. Continue to lead me on this journey as I realize it’s not about my ability, but Your grace. Thank You for revealing hidden sin and showing mercy. I will lean on You. I will remember Your word. I will trust You, and I will choose You. I love You, and I want to love You more.”